RACHEL,
i often fantasize about the impossibles.
ignorance is bliss, sometimes it's good to stay uninformed THE TRUTH
Life is never fair,
So learn to live with it. SHARE. SHARE. SHARE
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screws and screwed, different severity.
May 25, 2011
i can never describe what i wanna say now. yes, i'm afraid i might offend many but i shall just spend 10 min of my time talking about it. yes, because i can take it no more.--- is so super screwed up. i'm not kidding, this is not something i will joke about. i want the old us back, where everything was happy, although i was never a part of "the hyper club", i rather that than this. so we are basically separated, you'll go your way and i'll go mine? that's just sad. why is everyone so frustrated? today, i heard so much, i was questioned. i'm extremely confused and at the same time lost, what's happening? you seem so happy and then the next moment, bam, everything changes. seriously, i wanna know what's happening but then again, i'm scared and afraid because i'm timid. and it's not just happening in --- k! it's happening all around me! wth -.- i don't know what i can do to change it but then again, i don't wanna be pulled into this messed up picture where everyone's so pissed off and not happy. during recess, i heard someone wanting to jump, jump off, jump off the building. i really hope this is said in a joking way because i can think of a few reasons why i would be severely traumatized. i'm not used to seeing 3 people buying food and gossiping at the side. i'm not used to people moving around in small groups and they whisper among themselves. i'm not used to people erupting in class. i'm not used to people gathering outside the classroom every now and then, talking their hearts out, but only among themselves. i'm not used to how people give weird glares at you as they whisper. i'm not used to confessions, where you go down the list one by one, as if you are making a check-list. i'm not used to vague and ambiguous statuses on facebook. it makes me worried and i get paranoid. i'm not used to you calling someone by their title instead of their name. i'm not used to hearing complaints about a certain person. i'm not used to how you pretend. i don't like it when people ask me weird questions, like whether i think i'm screwed or not. i do not know, i really don't. i need definitions, i cannot define my words. i'm just not used to the constant back-stabbing, gossiping, comforting, tearing, and everything everything else that's happening around me. you would probably ask me to change, but i can't, and neither do i want to. i am a weird person, i don't like changes, more specifically, i am afraid of changes, especially for these matters. or is it because it's time? it's not dooms day yet but it's the time when everyone shows their true colours. i don't blame you for back stabbing or gossiping but all i wanna tell you is that the cycle just goes on and on. people are so scary, really. i used to question that statement but not anymore. i am afraid, yes i am. to end off with: 日久见人心! i wanna live in the world of my own, where everything is perfect because i'm the only one in it. |
  
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